Do I need a girlfriend? I asked myself that over and over. My first answer is yes, just like every other guys in the world, I do want a girlfriend. But that’s just a simple answer that I came up with just the cover of my thoughts. Do I really need a girlfriend? The real answer is unknown. Honestly it doesn’t even need to be a girlfriend that I need. I’ve thought about it. And what I really need is a “companion” or a “partner”. Girlfriend just happens to fit the position of it. I have friends. Maybe more than other people. But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel lonely. For some reason I have these holes in my heart that creates this loneliness. I don’t understand why. Why do I feel so lonely? When I’m hanging with friends, it surely is fun but something doesn’t feel right. When I get home after hangout, I get bombarded with this massive loneliness and misery. Why? Why do I feel this way? I dont get it. I continuously make friends where ever I go, hoping for comfort. I feel comfortable and I do have fun but for some reason they don’t fill the holes. It just keeps on coming back. I feel empty no matter what. Why is this? I hope I can find some light somewhere in my life. I have this image of me standing in the darkness burnt in my mind. Maybe from that trauma that I got when I was little. I want some light. But yet have I found it. Sigh. And this goes on and on so I’ll just stop writing now.