July 2011
3 posts
Don't make me laugh, you little cheapass coon.
“Quit being a little bitch and play”? Nigger, you don’t understand how cheap you were being or what? Using the same move over and over on 1vs1 game? What do you call that other than cheap bitch? Or you do understand that you’re being cheap but never mention it because you need to win whatsoever? Little bitch, you’re the one whose still a kid. It was obvious that I get...
My journey is still ongoing.
Still looking for true homies, still looking for true partner. Still seeking for a girlfriend, still cannot trust the world. Still cannot trust others, still seeking for the truth. I’m just me. May be I was born as a soloist. Hm. No words for this.
So I started thinking.
Why am I trying so hard to get her? Is it true that I just want a girlfriend? Or is it because she is so special? Is it true that it can be anyone who will truly love me from the deepest area of the heart? Or does it have to be her? I guess I’m desperate. In need of girlfriend? No, more like in need of filling up the empty holes in my heart. The scar that can only be cured from getting a...
Another bad deal or what?
Hmm if my assumption/prediction is correct, this is gonna be very bad. I’m ticking off because of what I have seen. IF it is true, this time I’m gonna get really really really mad. Fucking shit. How many times do you want to break my heart? How long is it gonna take you to calm the fuck down? How many guys do you need in your fucking life? Are you that lonely? Are you that miserably...
June 2011
24 posts
Being a dick.
At least I’m doing to solve some misunderstandings. But she deserves my anger. What she did was pretty fucked up. I will be a bit aggressive on you because you already hurt me.
Fucking girl played with my emotions
Waste of time, waste of gas, waste of money. Shouldn’t have gone for you at the first place. Girl, this Saturday when I see you, I’ll ask you one last time. If you are going to treat me like this, I’ll leave you. I could have been your best friend or boyfriend but it’s your fault for losing that opportunity because you made me feel like shit. I’ll let you choose...
I don't give a fuck
The reason why I don’t follow whatever I should follow is not because I can’t accomplish whatever I committed to do. It’s because I don’t care. No smoking for 3 days after surgery. I don’t give a fuck, it’s not like my jaw is gonna turn back to normal or they can fix it. I haven’t smoked yet though, I’m still on the edge of if I should smoke or not
I am sad
Lost a girlfriend. Gained a girl bestfriend.
I don't trust doctors
I believe every doctors are scums. Including dentists, nurses, any medical related people. My mom is a dentist assistant but I don’t care, I don’t like people working in medical field. Using my body as research puppet. Can’t even fix my disorder. Keep becoming worse instead of better. Working on this for more than 10 years and there are no improvements. G fucking G, now I’m...
Getting there, getting there.
She’s finally opening up on me! She doesn’t care much about me touching her (not in sexual way), and she’s inviting me to her stuff…feels pretty good yo
Today was a good day.
Kind of made my week up. Up until Friday I had very unsatisfying week, but just being with her made my week. I guess I’m getting obsessed to her because 2 days of no communication made it feel like a week. But I was really happy that I got to see her today :) I really hope this will go well
Listening the song Like a Wind by S.E.N.S
Life is just filled with bullshit. Very unfair. I start to see despair, too. I don’t understand the reason of my life anymore. Jesus Christ why is my life full of shit? Fuck this. I’m gonna go outlaw.
Never taking painting class. Especially oil.
Fucking buuuuuullllllshittt. Class is overwhelming me by seeing all these great artists and making me feel like shit. I’m most likely the youngest one here and I thought I did good but in reality mine is just garbage compared to others. Professor is already used to seeing professional paintings so he completely dissed at my work of art. I didn’t get any critique from other people in...
I don't know why but I feel this confidence...
This time I feel like I got this :) I feel like I can capture her heart. Yeauh!!!
Outlaw to the core
So useless, so hopeless, too painful that I just stopped trying. I’m probably just too weak. But I just don’t find life worth wasting time on living. World is too unfair for me to live. Most likely I’m gonna start slanging and join some outlaw organizations. World needs revolution. People are relying on intelligence too much and losing what we use to have. Purity and natural...
Ghetto life
I’m the only one who held the Cali swag in my family. Dad is way too serious and mom is brainwashed by the old system. My older brother is druggie nerd and little brother is straight-edge popular guy. Dad already gave up on me and stopped paying for my shit. That, I don’t really give a fuck because I eventually want everyone to stop worrying about my life. Mom is annoying as fuck...
Sigh
School, girl or health…My future is depending on school, girl probably already asleep and tmj has no end. I guess I’ll do my homework then :/
Bleh plan failed real bad.
How should I make it up…
Going crazy over her.
So I’ve had this dream and me and her were already officially together and we just had fun just having our time together and it was incredibly amazing. I can’t wait until we become official!!! Also can’t wait to take her to chantry tomorrow :)
Exchange of luck
I believe in exchange of luck. I don’t know about others but I just call this that. I believe in “whenever good things happen, bad things happen right after. In vise versa, whenever bad things happen, good things happen right after. Also the both costs will be equal. Which means if something real good happens, something real bad happens. But if something small good things happen, the...
Raging anger
Only if I could sue the fuck out of them. Bullshit reasons. Spartan rules even though the restaurant is small as fuck and not even big company or anything. Shinsengumi with Spartan regulations are understandable because shinsengumi is successful. But what is your restaurant? Everything’s bullshit. Only 4 out of 15 workers are chill. That Japanese lady still has her old ethics she used when...
I respect any creator, producer, anyone who has the bravery to start something new. For example, owl city. Many people dislike him for being fruity and having weak voice. I honestly don’t care about their characteristics. I think he’s amazing because he successfully brought a new music to the world. Many people dislike jrock for being gay and having makeups even though they are guys. I...
Burden
That’s what I fear the most. Instead of me becoming a burden, I would rather sacrifice myself. Even if I get hurt, I won’t tell others that I’m hurt because they will worry about me and I will become a burden to them. No matter how deep I get hurt, I will keep my mouth shut. If I was gonna be a burden with no other choice, I will end my life. I don’t want to become a burden...
Holes
Do I need a girlfriend? I asked myself that over and over. My first answer is yes, just like every other guys in the world, I do want a girlfriend. But that’s just a simple answer that I came up with just the cover of my thoughts. Do I really need a girlfriend? The real answer is unknown. Honestly it doesn’t even need to be a girlfriend that I need. I’ve thought about it. And...
New life
So I was thinking about starting over my life because my life up to high school was too miserably horrible. That’s, by far, probably the biggest regret in my life. But anyway, so far it’s going great. I’m already turning 20 so I should get my shit straight. I should act mature: not trying to be cocky but I think I’m already pretty good with this. Got a job: being able to...
So confused
Many people attempt to use me. Some succeeds but many fail. Maybe I’m the easiest target because I’m chill enough that I don’t give a fuck about anything, has no emotion, and I’m a pushover. I would love to join the dancer group but I can’t trust them as much as I trust my former group. Especially because one of them is a shadiest guy I’ve ever met. He’s a...
Guilt
Too sad to even function right. Today is not my day. Definitely not a good day to work. Keeping telling myself that I’m working only for money and career. How did this happen? It’s my fault. It’s only my fault. If I was more careful this wouldn’t have happened. Regret.
Had a nice talk with a black man
Today this black guy came up to me and asked me for a cigarette. I handed him one. Then he started to talk about these stuff which I don’t remember much because I couldn’t really hear him. Then he started to talk about a job at chase bank. He asked me if I wanted to work there so I got his number. Also he’s got the good tree so I also gained a tree connect. He looked like a...
May 2011
22 posts
Rant: I need to find my own life
Sick and tired of doing what others would do. Want to get out of this Arcadian bubble. I’m just being patient right now. Slowly developing that ideal life. Getting closer, getting closer. I’m just working hard for now to achieve my goal.
Aites. Bad initiation.
Fucking peer pressure -____-
Tired of arcadians.
Honestly, just sticking around with arcadians will trap me in a huge bubble because many of arcadians never burst out of bubble. I’m just really sick and tired of arcadians because if one was being shady, it will cause a chemical reaction and many becomes shady. And just imagine when you couldn’t attend something because you had work or something you had to do and every one of your...
Stressful day
1) fucked something up at work. 2) this fucking arrogant Mexican coworker almost got me fired. 3) fucking charger high beamed me and I almost crashed into an incoming pickup truck on highway. I really hope something good will happen to me in exchange of these fucking life-threatening shit-happenings.
Plan for next couple weeks.
After this coming weekend, I will not smoke even a bit of weed, so I can finish my paintings and not fail the class due to my laziness.
Also I will focus on designing my tattoos I’m gonna get in near future.
I know I can accomplish if I try my best.
1st paycheck, plan for future
Just a stepping stone. Got $420 but can’t really spend on anything cuz i got some shit to handle before start spending on anything. So I’m just gonna save up the money for something greater.
Can’t get tints yet. Can’t stock up on clothings/shoes either. I’ll probably just gonna get new pairs of piercings and possibly stock up on piercings cuz they are cheap....
What an interesting night
Me and my friends got searched and set on floor for 2 whole hours for loitering. What an interesting night!
Decision
Okay! I made my decision for which car to get (when I’m older obviously cuz right now I’m mocheen qq).
So I talked to my buddy and he gave me some good and deep speech about Japanese cars. You all probably guessed what car I’m gonna get now ;) obviously I’m gonna get japanese car because I’m Japanese and they’re the shiiiiiiiittttt!!! Fuck Bimmers cuz...
What is this. I don't even.
My older brother asked me if I can introduce some girls to him.
My younger brother asked me if I can help him ask a girl out.
They both seem to need girls…but I ain’t even trying to get a girl right now yo!
Just working hard and making money for the bright future :D chasing my passion, doing whatever I like to do….
Life is such a wonder! Life can still be amazing without a girl...
Today's summary.
1) Pulled an all-nighter with Neil and Ivan joined later at 7-11. Chill popo, although it was such a trip, was somewhat interesting.
2) Went to Bimmer Fest. Since I was getting bombarded by huge fatigue, I could not enjoy as much as usual. Honestly I was deeply confused and felt extremely left out and out of place driving Honda Civic into gangs of Bimmers. Also I felt really humiliated because of...
Stay strong, stay confident.
That’s all I need to become successful.
Many people think I'm rich.
Come to think of it I DO hangout with rich people mostly. Most of them are from higher mid-class people to bawlers. But well, although I’m not rich, I’m succeeding in developing the image of rich guy lol
Stress
First paycheck in 2 weeks.
Pay fine $234 by June 17.
3 paintings due in 4 weeks.
$84 left in bank.
Gotta start saving money. Can’t live by paycheck by paycheck. I have couple business plans pending so that’s good. Have a realistic and reasonable wishlist so that’s also good. Gotta start planning for future.
Quitting rolling forever
No specific reason. Just quitting for myself.
New job
Day 1 - pretty interesting and fun but exhausted.
Call it thug life!
Smoked about 3 bowls with friends 30 minutes before the class. I’ve thought about denying the invitation but since it was such an interesting line-up, I simply called Fuckittttt and smoked. It was pretty fun being shwaded, but I’m tripping bit in class right now while writing this post on tumblr.
Genuinely confused.
Hearing all these opinion from different perspectives, listening to what people think about what, having a critique about life, I honestly don’t know anymore. I don’t know which way is a correct path anymore. Trying to believe myself and have faith in my ideal future, but I feel stuck once again. My main group thinks without money you can’t get a girl. But some of my other...
It’s like stoges flying out from my pocket ;_;
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jrick:
Hello! I’m J’Rick. Here’s a few facts about me:
I’m 18 and I attend college at UCSD.
I’m not physically attractive and borderline obese.
I have a good personality to make up for fact #2.
I’m a caffeine and nicotine junky.
I have dependency issues.
I have happiness issues.
I drive a blue…
Whats ur words with friends username
Facepalm
Too inconsiderate, I’m literally speechless. I can’t even believe how he can be this inconsiderate and limitless girls over guys.
Speechless.
August 2010
1 post
True friend or not.
If a person was having a hard time and he asks you to call or text and if you do not, that shows if you are a true friend of him or not.
Even if a person did not ask you for a call, true friend would call to ask what’s up.
True friends would worry about their friends if they were having a hard time. They would want to know what happened and would ask if anything they can do will cheer you...